I've resolved myself.

It's day five of the new year and I've finally made a list (albeit short) of resolutions.

1. I will have AT LEAST one date night per month with my hubby.  We didn't have many date nights at all last year.  In fact, I think that I can count on two hands how many times we went on an actual factual date.  I will be creative with those date nights.  They may not always require GOBS of money, but they will require that WE spend time together.  Building and maintaining our relationship is important.  Not just for our well-being, but, for our kids to learn how important it is to put your spouse ahead of your children. I'm not up for a debate on that, so, I'm leaving it there.

2. I will strive to be a better parent.  I'm sure that I don't have to repeat myself, but, 2012 was a HORRIBLE year.  I failed in many ways as a parent; I know that I'm always learning, but, I'd like to make sure that I do the little things that I missed out on last year.

3. I will read 40 books this year.  That is sixteen more than I aspired to read last year.  As of today, I've read two.  I think that I've got a pretty good start.

4. I would like to lose twenty-five pounds.  As much as it pains me to say this, I've gained weight.  More than I intended to. Who really intends to gain weight anyway? 2012 was not kind to me.  And, for the first time in my life, I became an emotional eater.  I would like to change that.  I want to enjoy food and feel guilt-free.  If I can make my goal, I'd like to do a pin-up photo session for my hubby.  I'll buy a sexy new swimsuit.  I'll rock that body.

5. I will experiment with cooking.  Healthy foods. Kid-friendly foods.  It doesn't matter.  I'm going to amp it up this year! Be prepared!

6. I will NOT sweat the small things.  Life happens.

7. I will expand my spiritual journey.  I want to end this crisis of faith.

If I don't meet each resolution, I'm not going to beat myself up over it. As I said in #6, life happens!

Resolutions.

The new year is upon us and I haven't made my resolutions yet.  I don't know that I've really narrowed it down.  There is the usual: weight loss, be a better person, spend more time with my kids.  Right now, I just don't have the energy to make a formal resolution.  And, I don't have the energy to rehash the previous year.  It's been a tough one; I pray that 2013 is a better one.  It can't be much worse.

So, I'll continue my day of relaxation with the family and write my resolutions tomorrow.  Maybe.